i love people and yes, life is good... but i am so emotionally unhappy with myself and with people around me. i've tried to be more open or be more honest with people (and by honest i do not mean i want to stop telling lies because it is only rarely that i lie) but i want people to know how i really feel. nobody does know because i can't do it. i don't know how and i am so scared and i feel isolated on my little island and there are lots of crocodiles or alligators in the water around me so i can't get to shore or i will die via reptile. there are so many wonderful people that may never know that they mean so much to me because i can't find the way to do it. there is no way i could matter as much to them or maybe they don't care.
