every time i think it will be different. there are all these things i know i can't do, but sometimes i will feel like i can do them and it leads me astray. where are the people that are sincere? the people who stick to their guns and to their feelings? the people who say what they mean (or at the very least, mean what they say)? some things i can't find in myself & i wish i could find them in you, or somebody. i wanted you to prove me wrong.