alpha

dancing should be spontaneous
as should acts of kindness,shoe purchases and if you're the sort who falls in love then i think it will be spontaneous too.
like a bad cold in the summertime
mostly i just wish you could appreciate staying in bed all day for what it really is: kind of like a dream but you can feel people and breathing

stay gold

i've woven concepts and ideas and parts of my life out of imaginings (not lies, just dreams) and now so much of it isn't real. it is starting to scare me.

tout doucement

les seules sentiments sont celles d'être secondaire a tout d'autre
la seule pensée a son ésprit est qu'elle restera comme cela pendant l'éternité
oui, nous sommes tous seuls mais il y en a quelq'uns d'entre d'autres qu'on oubliera jamais - peut être cela n'est pas vraie, mais c'est une idée dans laquelle je croie foretement

pick me up i'm falling

What do you do in your spare time?
nothing solid
i live on nothings
things that are floaty wispy transparent nothings, really, really
losing things i need (what does a person need, anyway, i am still breathing but it burns)
and people, a degree of dependence isn't all that bad
someone said i have brains, lost them too, if i had anything else i've forgotten it somewhere
sorry i am not a cut-out
and when i wish i were i know i shouldn't wish. i should revel in this
In what?
oh, i don't know... you know what i mean, right?
deeper than my muscles, things that happen behind my teeth behind my eyes
i miss you missing me sort of thing, feed my craving for... you know what i mean, you know what i mean right
Oh... No, I don't have any idea what you mean. Um, what is your favorite book? Movie?
more things that i love but you all force me to do
...Favorite band? Give me something solid to work with here. Something I can publish, something, anything.
oh, music, music, don't.
Okay. I give up.