sometimes people tell me "someone always has it worse off" which is a silly thing to say because you'll find people who are the worst at some things, or so mediocre at everything, or so mediocre at a few things. i don't know why but lately i rank everything i do and am among others which is terrible because i always find i am low or lower or don't want to think about it but i seem to have no choice (i do, i just like to think i don't). and then i think and see and you rub in my face all the things i lose because of mediocrity and then i hate that i even think of this but i also hate to think that things might come to me i will go get them and snatch them all up = "mediocrity doesn't mean average intelligence, it means an average intelligence that resents and envies its betters" oh boy, i thought i try my best i don't because if i really wanted -
and i will just string mediocre sentences together and float
will you sleep tonight
